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Wednesday, March 24, 2010 @ 9:59 PM
"princess , go on cam. its been 5 years I just wants to see how you look like now "
" if you go on , ill go on too "
"lol okay fine '
( invite me to cam with him )
Honestly , i didn't regret it . I LOVE seeing him. It was like a dream come true. FIVE looong years. And actually being able to that was AH.
Im deeply scared. I know that I've had different crushes every DAY , but at the end of the week his the one I settle with. Theirs just something in him that i cant miss out on .
i wonder what it is. I hate having to go through all this thinking & wondering and all this bs. When i know CLEARLY that were not meant for each other.
" why is he staring at me ?,omg princess just smile and act like you don't notice. " Im not crazy for thinking that , I fully saw him STARE at me. He was smiling and it felt like his eyes were locked . It gave me this WONDERFUL feeling , and along with that my mind started making fantasies. OHGULAY!. See , the more I avoid each scenario and try to move on from where I left of , before realizing my true "feelings" for him , the more it comes back, and I start to wish and hope that everything I IMAGINED will come true. I just hope that I wouldn't go crazy for him in the future.
As of now , I'll think positive. And not rush the Lord with his plans between Christian & I . Who knows maybe he would grant my prayers. If i just wait patie
ntly.